Pain is an indicator something is Wrong

Well Hello Everyone

As the Autumn months kick in, taking us into the latter part of the year, not long left until another New Year kicks in.  Maybe it's a little premature but I'm already reflecting on the year which has swiftly danced by and what a year it has been.  I've learned so much about myself and that awareness continues and will continue until I leave this earth plane.
Yet the beauty is that I am much stronger and hopefully wiser but it hasn't been easy, because I have been challenged by this emerging awareness to look at me more closely.  To look at how I operate and to continue to be true to self.  The challenges that have presented themselves have often left me thinking "Que Pasa?" yet I have  a wonderful oracle of wisdom by my side and a few trusted friends who have often held out a hand and guided me, sometimes kicking and punching into my new awareness.  And one key thing for me was to finally put life down and get some long term REST.

Now this thing called REST has really challenged me so much so that I ended up in A&E two weeks ago as my right arm died on me, so to speak.  My shoulder froze and went numb and I spent a few days in bed laid up on my back unable to move and in such pain that I had to breathe myself to sleep to get some respite.   Even the paracetamol didn't work (and I am not one to take tablets) and I ended up bawling like a baby. 

 Yet this was a place the Universe had to bring me to AGAIN in my lifetime.  Actually thinking back on my life, the few times I've  been taken down have always been quite severe.  A wake up call YEP and YUP.  Yet this time I knew it was time I really took note and I've made some major changes in my life.   It's hard dough, because I'm having to discipline myself to understand what REST really is about and to slow down more than 50%.

For someone like me who has been incredibly driven and have pretty much done life on her own for so long, to pull back and allow more support and help in my life and to just nurture self has been interesting.   I still feel challenged not to work until the late hours of the morning and to go to my bed when tired, even during the day, rather than push through.  But my health is of the utmost importance to me.  Yet as I continue to learn to  STAND IN MY TRUTH AND DO ME, I know that whatever shows up in my life and in my body tells me something about what I need to deal with.

So I would encourage you to continue on your journey through life by being mindful to look after, to nurture, to rest well, to exercise, to eat well, to strike a balance in life.  I am learning to walk my talk more with this because it's important.
Remember things do not show up in our body unless we invite them in by not being mindful.  We are what we EAT.  We are what we THINK.  A balanced and healthy body cannot get ill.  Watch for the signs.  Makes those changes now before its too late.  I ended up in A&E because I was not listening to my body enough.  I saw the signs I just chose on some level to ignore them.  What is it you are neglecting or not facing today?  Go gentle on you and face what needs to be faced, without judgment, without fear.   Remember THE TRUTH WILL SET YOU FREE.


Heaps of love and hugs


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The Mother Daughter Journey with Cancer

I've thought often whether I should share this particular journey to-date, tired of recounting my story over and over again but here goes. My mother has been battling cancer for two years and the last six months have been very intense for myself and sister. Yes, I must admit I grew and still grow tired of the “Oh dear” OR “Oh I'm so sorry, or gasps of “how sad.” I am respectfully grateful for all messages of concern and thank everyone from the bottom of my heart for their offers of support and a shoulder to cry on but I ike to keep things real. This is part of a process that needs to uncurl because the outcome has already been set in place. The situation now is that we make our mother as comfortable as possible and support her as much as we can. This is a very intense time going up and down between hospice and hospital on the other side of town, but it is something that has to be done and for me I go into my place of meditation, exercise and music and being in constant and deep connection to source.

Yet this journey has thrown up some rather emotive experiences. One that moved me until I wanted to bawl, but one where I was still not ready to fully let my tears go was when my mother finally blessed my union with my fiancée on Saturday.

So for the first time, maybe ever for me, my mother actually held my hand tight and in a loving way and prayed. Yet it was when her tears started to flow I could feel the energy behind those tears, an energy which said “I wish I could be alive to see my daughter get married” an energy which carried pain which said “I wish I had done this sooner and had gotten to know my daughter more.” I was able to read her energy which read into so many more things that were going on in my mothers heart and for that alone, I wanted to bawl because within the pit of my stomach I could feel a ball so tight and burdened even I was not able to cry, yet I also knew this was her offering of peace and a love she had not often been able to express and I accepted that energy because it was time to. Also to compound all this being highly intuitive on many levels I can feel, see and sense, thoughts, emotions intensely and have been experiencing much of my mother's journey even when not physically around her.

It's often hard for anyone to really understand the depth at which I truly operate. I love deeply, I hurt deeply, I love passionately, I operate at an intensity at times that is beyond the reach of many and yet it was when another intuitive individual said to me on Sunday “Esther you have to learn to lean more on your partner and you have to cry, cry out the pain that has been sitting in you for so long a time. The pain of being accepted by your mother and how you are feeling her and all the emotions that had come up and for the first time in your life, in a crisis situation, learn to lean more into someone because he is there by your side.” Always being “strong” as others see me, I often fall into my pattern of just getting on and doing what needs to be done. Often times people have called me a warrior and for the first time in her life, Esther had to learn to still be the warrior because this does not just mean to fight but to stand strong in self, but also I had to learn to become vulnerable and know that it would be ok to be in that space.


Yep, always something to learn isn't it. You think you know who you are on one level and then the universe/God/source throws something at you and you then have to decide do I catch this? do I hit this? do I run after it? Or do I just let it fall? And in that space of thought, you realise that however you choose to address what comes at you, you can guarantee that in some way something in how you perceive life will change.


I certainly recognise and know that I have grown so much more stronger within myself these past few months. I feel solid, like an Oak tree, needing nothing other than the sustenance, guidance and strength from source and at every step of the way the more I go within, is the more I am prepared and know what is happening. This often unfolds in my dreams at night and in my visions and it is such a wonderfully strong place to be, but I have to learn to share this space more with my significant other.  Many lessons for me here on many levels yet this learning is and has become as fluid as the ocean.  I don't police myself anymore, I just trip into the process of awareness of what i am feeling, I assess, I take action and then I keep on moving and there is such a great sense of peace throughout this whole process as well.

Sending love to one and all always

Taking out Me Time and Time for those you Love

Dear Lovely People

Hello and welcome. This article is a bit of a long one, so put yer feet up and have a cuppa.  Hope you are enjoying the Spring weather as it fluctuates between all four seasons within the span of a day.  Yet in all things it’s about being grateful and moving with fluidity and being adaptable to the weather’s ever changing moods.  When we realise that each mood swing serves nature for its greater good whether that be sunshine, or rain, it is what the earth needs at that moment in time.  Similar to how we experience life really.  It’s all about balance.  One of the biggest lessons I have had to learn over the past year is simply that of balance.  I am really enjoying life now as I have had to learn to take time out when the going gets tough and the tough gets going . I take time out for Esther, yes I now pull back.  I once fought this pulling back “lark” as I thought it to be.  Had a few heart palpitations and sweaty palms as I fought the urge to attack my laptop with vigour, but you will be happy to know that I survived and have been taking Sundays off for the past two months.  Hmmm….ME TIME? I question? Did that mean head to the bath to soak for a mere ten minutes or so, or could I possibly take more time out for me and do things for a longer period of time without having laptop withdrawal symptoms?   I certainly never knew I could do this until I made a conscious choice to enjoy life a little more and guess what, I am having a ball.

Yes, I admit I am a workaholic and I love everything I do.  I can hear some of you snorting,  “you lucky so and so” as you resentfully sit in a job which has long lost its appeal and all you’ve got to look forward to is a pension where you can holiday once in 20 years and have a bag a crackers for supper as a treat once in a blue moon.  It’s all about choices peeps.  I jumped with the Titanic years ago, nearly sunk, but I paddled hard and finally things are coming together for me. 

Yep I am definitely passionate about my work, but in the process of this, I have learned to sleep when I am tired, bedding down in the middle of the day if I must, this has nothing to do with being idle by the way, it is more about being selfless and looking out for number one, so that I can then look after those around me even better.  My glass has to be constantly topped up, otherwise, how can I ever expect to give to others without burning myself out, which I have done in the past.  Also in taking time out, I am learning to smell the roses, the daffodils, the petunias and even da coffee, mmmmm…deelish!!!!!   Other times I will take a walk…nope not on the wild side but out in nature or run in the park with my dog or meet up with the occasional friend.  I have a small but beautiful set of friends whom I can cuddle into, laugh and chill out with and the more I do this is the more I am embracing life.  When’s the last time you laughed and relaxed into you so much so you forgot who you think you are? Hmmm think about it, me mateys.

Many, many (hmmm many) years ago I dated someone briefly who worked around the clock.  He coined himself an entrepreneur.  Worked himself ragged and sometimes disappeared for days on end.  I remember saying to him to be mindful to take time out to connect with people because you never knew what was around the corner.  Yet he kept on working so much so he became a recluse.  Then one-day he called me to say his next door neighbour had died about two weeks prior.  He had not been aware of this because he had been in one of his “reclusive” states” for over a week.  This situation really left my friend feeling terribly gutted as his neighbour was someone who he really respected and loved.  After that he realised the importance of creating time even if it was to say hello, to pick up the phone, to send an email, to maintain contact somehow.  Life is a precarious thing is it not? a bit like a bowl of sweets.  You dip your hand in and never know what you are going to pull out and sometimes your hand comes up empty because all the sweets have gone. 

Many of us are working towards a goal, for an aim, and in the midst of that we forget to find quality time for ourselves.  I should know I’ve been there.  But the more conscious I become and the more aware of my understanding of life and how it works, is the more I realise how important it is to even say a “hello” once in a while and for me to recognise what is really important in my life.  

H eaps of love and hugs

Esther

Interview with Jez Hughes, Shaman Practitioner

Here I interview Jez Hughes who is known as a Shamanic Practitioner.  His journey with Shamanism started many years ago as a young man of 14 where he suffered from several traumatic experiences.

Jez will be presenting a workshop at the Mind Body and Spirit Festival on 11^th November 2011 about The Shamanic Path – A Guided Journey.  Here I interview Jez about his walk and work with Shamanism and get an insight into the workshop he will be delivering at the MBS in under two weeks time.  With the massive shift in consciousness continuing to take momentum, 11.11.11 signifies another important milestone and I will be asking Jez his take about  this auspicious moment.

Esther:  Jez.  Thank you for your time.  You call yourself a Shamanic Practitioner.  The journey into and with Shamanism is one taken initially with the self and through the self, eventually going beyond the self, if  that is a correct interpretation I have presented.   This is why I too feel drawn to Shamanism because it is about journeying with the self first before you can reach out to work with or heal anyone else?  I feel this is pretty profound because it trains you towards a greater/heightened sense of awareness.  Therefore how did your journey begin along this path and how has it transformed your life around?

Jez:  HI Esther.  As with all paths we need to work with what we have initially, and that is our own experiences and perspective of life, our own souls.  And in order to assist others in healing on a deep soul level, we must know those depths within ourselves; otherwise it would be inauthentic and probably ineffective.

My journey began at the age of about 14 when I had a spontaneous experience that initially occurred as a kind of fit, my eyes were rolling around the back of my head, I couldn’t breathe and felt like I was dying.  The doctor was called but by this time I had calmed and found myself in a completely altered space, experiencing pure ecstasy at the beauty and inter connectedness of life.  However, I had no framework to understand this experience and it was both exhilarating and terrifying.  For a long time afterwards when it occurred again I got stuck in the in between space, afraid to be that out of control as I wasn’t in any way initiating the experience.   This led to a lot of extreme anxiety, mental disturbances, panic attacks and non-epileptic fits.  I now understand I was far too open to the invisible world of spirit, and it was overwhelming my whole being.  I was experiencing what I have since understood as a ‘Shamanic Illness’.  I travelled a lot to find healing for myself, explored many traditions, particularly Eastern, then in Australia, got fascinated with the Aboriginal culture which led me to train in shamanism.  I healed myself, then the next clear step was to use the help I had experienced from the spirits and shamanism to help others.  I began practising healing full time about six years ago.  I now assist and train others on this path alongside the healing work.

Shamanism has transformed my life by providing both a context and a practical application for me to understand and relate to the world:  All my deepest yearnings and longing, to taste something sweeter than the secular existence that I had grown up in, to truly honour and become a part of nature, rather than feeling like some separate entity that’s been placed here in this alien world, as we are often taught in our culture.  To come home.  

It has enabled me to heal myself, travel to the depths of my soul and into the heart of life.  It has also helped me to laugh at myself and life a little bit more, become more playful and accepting of the nature and limits of life, paradoxically while experiencing the limitlessness and mystery of existence.    

Esther:  From your perspective, or even in a nutshell what is Shamanism?

Jez:  An earth based spirituality, focused on healing.